Never too Old. Never too Late.

Lately, I have been feeling quite restless. Not bored, as I always have lots to do…but…more like…. restless between adventures.

It has been quite a big year. A year of considerable highs, lows, emotions and uncertainty. Don’t get me wrong, it has been a great year and I am extremely grateful for everything in my life, which is essentially positive and good.

This year, I have been fortunate enough to travel overseas, once again, to continue the work I am passionate about. These travels are a constant reminder to me of how blessed I am…. but they also leave me wanting to do much more. It highlights that whilst we may think we are only small relative to the rest of the world, we only need to want to make a difference and we can. It’s easy to think that there’s nothing we can do to change the circumstances but the truth is that there is always a way. We just need to find it and want to do it.

So I continue to think of ways I can make a difference. Because, isn’t that what life is all about: leaving a footprint, that you made someone else’s life better just because you were around?

To me, when it is all said and done, the only thing that matters is the legacy one leaves behind; what you stood for and the impact you had on the lives of the people around you. Any material gain along the way is purely a bonus; the reward for hard work and something to be used for your pleasure and enjoyment. Material wealth impacts only one life: yours. But to have made a difference to others, with no expectation of anything in return, that is what  I think it means to have truly lived.

All of this is not to say that we all need to travel overseas to help people in third world countries. Anyone can make a difference to somebody else, and sometimes the most significant difference comes packaged in small, subtle ways such as being kind and compassionate.

For the past few years, I have had this feeling; the feeling that I really need to do something significant. I don’t know what that is but I believe there is some part of my mission in this life that I am yet to fulfil.

And it is this that makes me restless.

My other issue is my awareness of time. Whilst, I am not old by any stretch of the imagination, I am mindful that as time ticks on, I could potentially miss the boat and be taken in a totally different direction, all because I failed to read the signs along the way.

I live in constant dread of my time running out and my becoming too old to pursue certain goals. I have to continue to remind myself that time is an illusion and that ‘I am not too old and it is never too late’.

I am often told that I should be happy with the things I have done, and whilst I am, I have never been one to be complacent. I have always been ambitious and can’t shake this niggling feeling that is telling me that I should have done more, I should not have settled, I should not have made myself small to appease others.

But one cannot live in the past, with regret. I know that I am exactly where I am meant to be. I am young enough to still make choices which can alter my course and fulfil my passion and purpose in life. It’s never too late for me to embark on adventures that align with who I am; what it is that I believe I am good at, and what can ultimately add value to my life and the lives of those that are important to me.

The only restrictions to living a fulfilling life are those that the mind imposes on us. Anything is possible. My note to myself is to continue to listen to your gut, it’s way more smart.

If you are looking for me, you will find me searching for my next adventure…